~ 添美蒂鳳凰回憶錄 ~

Its 4am in the morning and I am still working.. Looking at my emails and replying them in the middle of the night. I am surprised that I am still awake and not feeling a bit sleepy. Maybe its the Jet Lag as I came back from USA last friday. Or Maybe I am a workaholic! Haha.

Welcome back career woman! :) hahahaha

There are 12 letters in your name.
Those 12 letters total to 51
There are 5 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.

The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.

If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

Hmmmmm..... this analysis is somewhat true.

" 痴痴的等，暗暗的吟”

Sometimes I really wonder what am I living for. I asked myself a number of times.

I though I was self sufficient and independent. Apparently, I am not, I am missing something.

I can only blame myself for the atrocities I had done to myself.

" I had painted the skies black so that I could not see the stars."

我看见了彩虹，多么的美妙，多么的神话。我想象我在西方天堂。

彩虹代表了雨过天晴，希望的象征。

在我家附近出现的。。。

Nothing planned for this weekend...

Any LJ guys out there who have any plans for this weekend and do not mind me tag along can let me know plsss.....

Thanks Thanks :)

I could not help it but feel depressed at times.

Maybe I worry too much or perhaps I think too much. Many issues flood my mind, work, friends, my own self-being and inconfidence.

I question my own character sometimes. Am I a nice person? Am I someone who is true to myself and others? What kind character will reflect that you are a nice guy? Could you be a self-centred person however be a nice guy?

I really question myself. Who am I?

Cigarette prices went up again... now by 20 cents. Sigh, its getting more expensive. My only companion is now quite a high price to pay.

I come to know that one of my close cousin's new born daugther was admitted into paediatric's intensive care. My mother was telling me that she saw the newborn and she was flooded with many tubes and sensors. The doctor diagnosed it as a serious viral infection and need constant attention. My cousin became terribly devastated. I can understand her devastation as the child was born, she was carried immediately to intensive care. My cousin did even have the chance to carry the young newborn, much to say about breast feeding her. My mother told me that my cousin seemed to have aged 10 years and both her eyes her swollen. I felt sad too.

I worry for her daughter too. She had been in there for more than a week.

Its really worrying. I will pray very very hard for them.

Its friday. Disappointing to know that I did not get the job. No news from the company at all. Sigh.. making me depressed for the past few days.

Life is like that, you do not always get what you desired for. You will always be stuck to the same manhole and constantly swimming around the brackish waters, feeling lost and confused. Anyways, I just had to forget about and move on. Will still be sourcing new opportunities out there nevertheless.

Question is , will it be clinical related again? I also dunno myself.

Its the week of truth. Do I get my new job or do I not? Sometimes, job interviews are like buying 4D or Toto, after you had put in your effort in your interview sessions, what you need is luck. Whether you get the job, it depends purely on luck.

I asked myself, if I do not get this job, will i change the field of my job at the end of the year when my contract expires? or should I continue? Am I willing to make the change? Maybe I might consider this issue seriously once the time comes. Right now, its panicking time...

I had a day of rest of sunday. Stayed at home the whole day and watched tv. However, I still feel sleepy. Must be monday blues :P

Went for my 2nd interview this afternoon. I came out feeling inconfident and worried. I am really interested in my new job and I believe it could help me in my future career development. I actually went to waterlook street to pray to the Gods to bless me!

Personally I feel I had sold myself to my prospective employers with great enthusiasm. My friend advised me to leave it to fate. However, I still feel very nervous about the outcome.

I hope I can get the job. Time to move on...

I am very very sleepy and very tired. I do not know the reason why. My office is the best place, to think i could even catch a short 30 min nap on my table without receving any complaints hee hee.

Despite the short naps I took, I am still very tired. What is it that will perk me up?

Its Wednesday, middle of the week and I am feeling extremely lousy at work. Waiting for the weekend to come.. Hee hee. Anyone one got any plans for the weekend? Can I tag along?

Today I finally took off my t-shirt and put my mind into packing up my room. I ransacked everything and threw away those that I do not like and do not want to see it anymore. My motto is "Just throw, new ones will come by very quickly". Haha... I started at around 11am and finished at 4pm. My room was extremely dusty and I think I need a vacuum cleaner desperately. (Unfortunately my mum did not possess one...) Dust and filth was flying everywhere. It was a fierce battle wahhaa... At long last this is how my room looks like now.



Evening time, my whole family went to jurong point for dinner and shopping. I did not know what came over me but my parents actually instigated me to purchase a LCD TV. Many brands came to my mind, Samsung, Sharp, Toshiba, LG. But, I fancied a Philips 20 inch LCD TV (because it comes with a 3-year warranty, the other brands only maximum 2 years :P). The best thing is that it can allow me to watch tv and use it as a computer monitor! (you can say I am suah-ku, but I am really a techno idiot). Henceforth, I now possess a 20 inch LCD TV cum PC monitor! Wow.... The price is steep but thank heavens, they came up with something called monthly installments :P

I am so happy!!! Retail therapy work wonders! Together with all the efforts I put in packing up my room today, my room looks so cosy to sleep in heehee...

Its really one of the sundays that I felt so accomplished!

This is how my Philips LCD TV looks.

Long weekend is coming and better still, I am on extra long weekend as I am clearing my polling day off-in-lieu on monday!

Sadly I do not have any plans.

Anyone want to go out wif me or anybody who is going anywhere do not mind me tagging along?

I am bored please help.

Last night, I started to think about things.

Questions about myself, questions about the world and questions about human nature.

I fell asleep in the end.

I took a picture of a very nice LIMITED EDITION teapot from V Tea Room. It was claimed to cost thousands of dollars. I wonder if its true. Anyway, its a teapot featuring Romeo and Juliet from Shakespeare. Very beautiful indeed. And of course, beautiful teapots must come with golden coated tea cups and saucers and a cuppa of delightful strawberry-kiwi fields hot tea!




Anyone for V Tea Room?

Friday 05/05/06

I bought a new pair of working shoes from beetle bug. Frankly, I liked the design and best of all I got it at a discount! Citibank cardholders listen up, 20% off all shoes till 31 May 2006! Grab them while they still last :)




Saturday 06/06/06

Stayed at home the whole day, had a great rest. I managed to assemble a cupboard for myself from scratch! I didn't know I am quite a housemaker hee.

Sunday 07/06/06

Met up with Daniel for tea at V Tea Room.

Had dinner at Eastern Ocean Chinese Restaurant. They serve very tasty 小笼包 and delicious chinese cuisines.

Went for window shopping and but I did not get anything for myself.

Watching Anita Mui Music VCD now. Thanks to styloh :)

我要求是一段感情，一段简单的感情。一个简单男人爱女人的感情。（梅艳芳〕

Caught MI-3 yesterday. Nothing too fantastic, a lot of action and explosive scenes. Plot is very weak.

I still prefer the original Mission Impossible, the first one. It remained the best! Haha.

Come to think of it, I couldnt even remember what they showed in MI-2.

Going to Mount Faber for department dinner. Anyone been there, think its "The Avolt" or something. Heard its expensive, I am sure to enjoy myself there! :)

28/04/06 Friday

I was on half day leave. Went for a job interview in commonwealth. Apparently, I did not impress the interviewers. They felt that I am not really suitable for the position as the scope is slightly different from I am doing now. However, they suggested another position that might be suitable for me.. but its just a POSSIBILITY. I just had to wait.

Went for ktv with some friends. Enjoyed myself despite some sequence of events. I always enjoyed singing :P

Went back late and was preparing for another interview the next morning.

29/0406 Saturday
Morning - Interview.

The CEO chatted with me regarding another position. He proved to me that it is a position I would love to that as there are ample opportunities for career advancement. I was very keen and I know it would beautify my resue even more!

Afternoon - Went to Marina Square with a new friend

He was quiet and was not interested in shopping. I did much of the talking but I do felt a bit of boring that day. styloh called and we met up together with his dar-dar.

Caught the movie 'Aquamarine'.

Kind of a bimbo movie where girls are trying to get young men to fall in love with them. (the leading male actor also not v handsome too... in my opinion). This movie will make you feel sweet and filled with love after it. Moral of the movie - True love does not exist within just boy-girl or boy-boy or girl-girl, it exists too between friends and families.

The most puzzling thing is that my new 'friend' just walked away very very quickly after the movie. I was pretty puzzled and I could not figure out why did he need to make such a quick getaway. I tried to ask and called him but he did not respond to my shouts and screams. No news from him since. (sounds pretty obvious...

Night - At KTV lounge 'JIA'
Had a bottle of beer and listened to others sing....

No clubbing that night.